Hello!

As much as I want to be able to live and feel through my life and its experiences I wish I could just fast forward it. I’m in a rush to finish school, settle, and get on with my life. These next two or three years are going to be the longest and probably the hardest to get through, but I just need to focus and make sure that I am doing everything I do for the right reasons. I just hope and pray that all of the struggles will be worth it, and everything will fall into place the way I envision.

Last night. I’m annoyed with the girl in the back haha.

I’ve spent too much time alone the past 6 months, I finally get it. After so many years of being influenced by my surroundings I feel like I’ve found myself again. I’m simpler than I thought I was and I’m glad that I’ve shed off all the extra baggage. I think I’ve spent a lot of my time trying to fit in all of the wrong places, thinking I was impressing other people when really I was just trying to impress myself the whole time. Now, I can recognize what matters and who matters in my life. And it’s not that I feel like a brand new person because I’m able to do this, but I do feel like a better person. It was never about change, it was all about improvement.

Since I’m either MIA, busy, or I don’t have anything to say at all I’ve just been skimping around. My life is at peace though and I’m so in love with that fact, so in love.

• School has been A-OKAY, my grades have been looking mighty fine. I’ve been busting my ass off, getting work done on time, and trying to stay focused. 
• Got my raise at work and if the current CA would leave already then maybe I could move up one.
• No problems in the household, thumbs up.
• Got a head start on my Christmas shopping and I’m almost done, I’m seriously thousands of dollars broke. It’s okay though, I can’t wait to see the look on everybody’s faces when they get their gifts. It’s going to be priceless!
• Got the OKAY from my parents, looks like I’ll be in SJ/SF/DINSEYLAND from December 27-January 3 with Adrian. HYFR.
• Even though I don’t talk to anybody at all, I miss a lot of the people I was associated with. On the other hand, isolating myself has probably been one of the greatest things I have done for myself haha.
• Adrian has been really motivated to join the Air Force lately. He was supposed to go see a recruiting officer on Friday but forgot that it was actually Veteran’s Day haha. Hopefully his plans are steady, he said he wants to at least be in by Spring 2012.
• In the process of buying a new house. Moving is going to be so stressful. Right now my boyfriend’s parents are our realtor, they’re actually going to meet for the first time on Sunday and we’ve been together for almost 2 years now. Awkward?
• I’ve realized that I only want to be in the medical field for the money and I hate it. I love learning about it but at the same time I hate everything about it. My dream is to be in the fashion industry, that hasn’t changed for the past 6 years.
• I took a stress level test today for my HED 165 class, and my test results concluded that I may face an increased risk of illness because of stress haha, seriously?

Cropped H&M sweater + Levi’s high waisted cut off shorts.